hi im lydia, fifteen and im somewhere in between happy and sad, but im beginning to be ok with that. i live in not-so-great britain but i like the smell after rain and could never get used to calling jelly jello, so its bearable. at times im terrified of the future but others it cant come soon enough and im still trying to work out how that is. i like autumn and the colour green and jamie cullum and dislike patterned wallpaper and fudge. i read books maybe too much and am endlessly fascinated by the dice in the game frustration. prawn cocktail pringles give me a headache and i tried to dye my hair blue but it turned purple. this is my life and i cant quite figure out if its enough for me.